I am trying to be more productive with family, work, Girl Scouts, and life in general. I find that I hit a mode where after work I just want to escape into the non thinking world of TV. Now I totally support the need to do this occasionally but not as a way to shut everything and everyone out. My family needs me to be more on top of things. My husband needs me to support his efforts to help around the house. My kids need me to actually pay attention to what they are or are not accomplishing at school or with other activities. My school is the only place where I feel passionate about anything. I have not cared about the state of my house in a very long time. I have not kept track of the kids school nearly well enough. I do not hang out with friends nearly as often as I need to.
I feel like I can change and have in some ways. I need to continue to aspire to be more.I just am not totally sure how to get there at this time. I think in time I will find what I need. I just need to keep looking.